50 Stupid Thoughts After A Break Up

Break ups are not easy. There’s no right way to break up and there’s certainly no ‘ideal’ break up situation. People’s feelings get hurt, there’s tears, anger, resentment, confusion and a lot of chocolate and alcohol involved after the fact. I consider myself a pretty intelligent human and if you’re reading this, then I absolutely know you’re an intelligent human (mainly because you decided to read my blog, and that my friend is a good choice). I think the hardest thing about breaking up for us intelligent people, is that we have fucking dumb thoughts. Like ridiculous, where did that even come from, thoughts. As I’m sure someone famous once said, writing eases the pain. And whilst I’m not in pain anymore, it’s a good reminder to myself and others that despite having these crazy thoughts, you’re doing your best at the time and that’s all that you can ask of yourself.

And I thought I would share with you 50 Stupid (and not so stupid) thoughts I had after my break up. 

1. Oh no. Am I ugly crying or cute crying?
2. I didn’t see it ending like this.
3. Why do breakups end how they start? Stomach knotted with butterflies and repeatedly asking your friends what you should reply to their text.
4. What should I change my profile picture to?
5. Now I don’t have to feel guilty about wanting to spend my Friday night alone watching Sex and the City.
6. OMG I’m going to spend every Friday night alone watching Sex and the City.
7. When do I get back on Tinder?
8. Yay Tinder!
9. Uh TInder….
10. I’ll never love again.
11. Maybe I have all the love I need.
12. Maybe the lump on my neck is too much to handle.
13. Maybe I’m too much to handle.
14. Wow my friends are amazing. I’m so lucky.
15. Being single is the best thing ever!
16. Who am I without a boyfriend?
17. If it’s meant to be, it’ll be.
18. He’s obviously not the one for me.
19. All I want in life is to be happy.
20. What if I’m never happy again?
21. I’m going to start running.
22. Ooh look at me go, trying new things.
23. Fuck this, I’m getting pizza.
24. My friends tell me I deserve better… yea I do deserve better.
25. Maybe I’m being too nice.
26. Should I text them?
27. Maybe I’ll just post an story on Instagram.
28. OMG they sent me a snapchat!
29. I shouldn’t reply.
30. Fuck, I just replied.
31. I’m just going to leave my phone at home and go for a run.
32. Nah, I’ll just go and pick up some pizza.
33. I’m going to focus on work.
34. And study. I am a total boss.
35. Wow my life is so great.
36. *goes to bed at night* I have no one.
37. I’m handling this so well.
38. Come on heart, catch up.
39. There’s a cute dog, they will appreciate a snap of this.
40. Oh right, we broke up.
41. They would look so good in – oh wait, yep, still broken up.
42. We can still be friends, right?
43. Why do people keep asking me about them?
44. I’m angry, hurt, disappointed.
45. But I don’t have hard feelings.
46. I don’t have room in my life for negativity, hatred or unkindness.
47. I miss you.
48. It’s going to be OK.
49. When am I going to have sex again?
50. I am enough (not a stupid thought).